Change for the Better

(A reflection just before launching my very own business through Enagic)

Is it a risk?  Of course it is.  But it only takes one jump to entirely change the trajectory of our life, of our well-being, of our family’s future.  And it’s time that catalyst burst.  I’m terrified, believe me.  I know the weight of this decision.  I’ve toiled over it for 2 years.  I have a fire scratching at my soul to succeed not so I have another thing nagging away at my time and energy.  But I want this change in our family to provide better health for us and I believe this is a wise move in the midst of an uncertain future.  I was afraid saying yes to this would take away my opportunity to do anything else.  But it’s not this or writing, this or pastoring, this or parenting.  It can be whatever I want and need it to be. Ionization doesn’t have to become my entire identity, in fact, I don’t think it will.  The Lord created me with gifts and graces for pastor-hood. But I feel certain that this is a good thing for our family, a step toward growing in skill, knowledge, and confidence.  I also believe she is the right teacher for me.  I believe she has the tools to help me succeed, and I’m teachable.  I’m eager to put in the work.  But I do need your support.  I’ll need your help navigating the numerical side of business.  You are my masculine energy that balances our my pure femininity.  I cast vision, I communicate, I create the content.  You keep it organized with strategy and accountability.  So it’s still a team effort.  I’ve always understood it as that much — that’s why I’ve never gone ahead of you.  This decision is for us, made by us, and will benefit us.  I’m excited and ready and committed to doing well.